The busy-ness of the last few days has convinced me that I need to be doing something besides just sitting around, waiting to recover strength and define my new normalcy. Don't get me wrong--my days are full and long--I bathe, I exercise, I cook & eat, do household chores and daily clean-up. I read, I write, I shop for provisions. But at the end of the day, I can't say I've really accomplished anything productive or of lasting consequence.
When I was sitting in countless waiting rooms at UVA, I started a list: Things to Do After Cancer. It was an exercise in positive thinking, hoping really, that there would be an "after" in which to do all the things I want to do with my life from now stretching far off into a long future.
Now I'm thinking I need a different kind of list: Things To Do During Cancer So As Not To Be Dwelling Constantly On Cancer. I need a project, a goal, an occupation, an avocation.
Maybe the trick is to forget about making lists and just get going on the "Doing."
Postscript: For those who have inquired, Bill finally made it to Japan and his ship after 3 days of travel by planes and hired cars. His luggage is still lost in the maw of airline travel, but he bought some clothes at the Navy base and sailed anyway. Perhaps the shipping agent will get it for him and to him when the ship returns to port. In any case, my sailor is now on the briny deep, and doing the work he does so well.
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